Surprise!

Ok so I have it backwards, the pictures for suppose to be at the bottom and I am way lazy today to fix it! =)

Aren't these chicks the cutest things eva!

Everyone needs a friend like her! She is amazing!

My better half!

This is myself hugging my mother-in-law who made me cry. She got me such a thoughtful gift. A Pandora charm that says "best nana" It's very much true my nana was the BEST!

We have a love hate relationship! =) Oh and the party was for him as well. He knew about the party but didn't know it was for him too.


The sweet family who got together for me!

The rest of em!

So ya know how I said we were going to Dave n Busters for my birthday well little did I know there was actually family waiting to surprise me in Ashland. Monte and Amanda had it planned so good and it meant more to me then they know.

It was a hard day for me thinking about my nana and all and having family, married into family, get together for me was so awesome. I am so thankful to have married into such a great family who treat me so good. They have def made this transition into a new state very smoothly! Thank you Petersen's and Hauschild's!!

P.S. It's my anniversary! I can't believe I have been married to such an amazing man for 5 years! He is for sure my better half and an amazing father! I love him more and more everyday! Thank you Lord for sending him to me! Love you Monte Lynn!!

26

26 years later here I am married, 2 healthy beautiful kids and living 900 miles from the state I knew for 25 years!

Today is my 26th birthday. 26 man I can't believe I'm 26 I remember when I thought that was oldish, now it's not looking to bad I mean old now is like shoot I don't know 100 maybe!
It's been a good day so far, I didn't know how hard it was going to be on me not having my nana calling me singing "happy birthday" to me. She called me every single year for 25 years. Every year. Like I said before she was the very first person to see me come into this world. I had a little break down. My Aunt "wessa" as I call her, called me this morning to wish me a happy birthday and well she has my nana's cell phone so in my phone I still have her number under "nana" so when I seen that it just hit me all over again. I know she is singing happy birthday to me up there in heaven while probably doing the Charleston. =) Oh nana I miss you dearly. I'm so ready for the day that it starts getting easier, I know it never gets better there will always be that special part of my heart that she has missing until I'm with her again. But I know it gets easier, it has to right? I love you nana thank you for singing to me like I know you are!!

So anywho I think we are heading to Omaha to Dave and Busters tonight with some family to celebrate so that should be fun I have never been but heard it's fun!

26 wow 26. Next thing I know I'm going to be 96 not old yet but getting there at 96. =) Everyone have a safe and blessed weekend. Oh and make it a point to hug and tell everyone you love how special they are because you never know when the last time you talk to them will be!

RIP Nana

My sweet sweet nana passed away last Thursday the 12th at the age of 68. She was the very best nana ever and I about can't stand that she is gone.

She got put in ICU Christmas Eve night and the girls and I drove down on the 30th (Adilynn's 2nd birthday) to be with her. Her whole left lung was covered in pneumonia.

I was able to be with her everyday for a week and a half. By the time I got there she was a lot better then she had been (her breathing was better along with she was more alert) but she did have a couple not so good days. By the time I was getting ready to go back home that night she was going home on hospice but seemed so good, I thought so anyways and they even said they thought she had at least 2 weeks to a month. She has been through so much and is such a fighter so I thought she could pull through or at least give it a run and fight for a while. So I thought I will come home for a week or two then come back. I got home on Wednesday and she passed on Thursday. I was able to be on the phone as she went to be with Jesus. I keep beating myself up that I wasn't there, why didn't I just stay a few more days? Then I try and think obviously God wanted me home with my husband who could help me through this. I don't think I could have been able to handle seeing her suffer like she did.

My nana was one of the best people I have ever met. If I could say one thing about her it would be that she loved her family. She would do anything in this world for us and only wanted to see us happy and if we were happy she was happy. I just hope I can be half the woman she was, and raise my family just like she did. Everyone at her funeral said to us she def did something right as close of a family as we are. My heart just breaks that she is no longer here and my girls won't get to have her here growing up and A is so young she prob will not even remember her. Right now I am just trying to get through the days without crying all day. It's like I am fine and then I remember she is gone and it just goes all over me and I can't stand it. I know it will get easier I'm just ready for it to be that time. The very last thing my nana said to me was "You be good to Adilynn and Katlynn (shaking her head)... I mean Lynnlee" lol Nana I promise you I will be as good to my girls as I can, hopefully as good to them as you were to us! I will take everything you told me and use it to raise my girls! Oh I'm going to miss my nana more then anything but it is comforting knowing she is in heaven watching over me and my girls and the rest of my family. and I will see her again as LL told me "Mommy when you get old and get sick and God wants you to come to heaven you will get to see nana again!" Crazy how things are so simple to kids.